Journal - December 22, 2020

I got home for Christmas a couple days ago. It is such a weird feeling to be home but not “home”. Part of my heart is in Haiti and I am missing people there.

God has definitely been showing me that my hope and salvation is not in what I have or what I accomplish, rather in the relationship and reliance I have on Him and the heart I have for others.

All is vanity and fleeting, yet we bend over backwards to make sure everything is just right. But what will we say when it goes up in flames, what will God think? Who will we have helped, what effort will we have given, and how will we have shown God’s love? Is the gospel a priority or a checklist item, a sincere desire from the depths of our heart or a mere sense of “I should”?

I pray I can be open to where God continues to direct my heart, and that ultimately He would give me wisdom to discern His leading and always pour HIs love to others, wherever He leads me.